My life is fucking over

[feather]

Sorry guys I typed all that shit at 4am and in hindsight it is probably not the best thing for GYY right now.

[feather]

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[Garrick]

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just my two cents.... i know you're hung up on your ex. but if you got a cool girl that wants to be with you, maybe you should focus on her. hell, sorry to hear about all the drama. but maybe the best thing for you is right in front of you. hope it sorts itself out man.

[hypoluxxa]

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just my two cents.... i know you're hung up on your ex. but if you got a cool girl that wants to be with you, maybe you should focus on her. hell, sorry to hear about all the drama. but maybe the best thing for you is right in front of you. hope it sorts itself out man.

Not to sound like a dick, BUT I think Garrick is right. Either way soooo sorry to hear about all this.

[Kat]

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First your life is not over, in other words your life is just beginning! You were not born into this world with a mission to be the one who has to take care of your friend who is unfortunately ill. Your only mission is to take care of you (or your kids when you have them), well I know it may sound selfish but the events in your life are showing you the way out of this situation which is not your fault or your duty in any way!! Doing “the right thing” may sound noble but in reality has nothing to do with your purpose in life which is to make yourself as big a person as you can be and clearly this relationship does not make you happy. This mess you found yourself in may just as well be a blessing in disguise so you can move forward in life. What can you give others if you’re a mess? Make yourself happy first and others will follow! You can still be her friend and help her thru tough times anyways.

[fatalfelix]

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Wow, sorry to hear this. It sounds like it doesn´t matter what you do for her, it will always be wrong in her eyes, and that feels fucked up. Don´t blame yourself for it, and don´t blame her. She had a hard time and you need to support her. You can tell her that you want to move on, but first she needs to be mentally stable. Take the time, take a lot of rest and keep us posting.

[DancingQueen]

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Wow feather I am so very sorry you are going through this. Its definitely a very difficult situation for anyone and only you will be able to make the best decision for yourself and your well-being.

First of all, it is very admirable of you to have stood by her all this time and I am sure in some way, you will always be there for her....however this seems like a very toxic situation and I think you need to take a step back from it. You need to focus on you and making yourself strong and happy.

If you need anything at all, please feel free to get in touch....hang in there *hug*

[floridaorange]

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Your ex-girlfriend destroyed your stuff? WTF? When did she tell you she had cancer, before or after she came over, need more info on this one, sounds super complex.

[i!!ustrious]

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chip up and stay up brother, you can conquer this.

just forget about that fuckd up shit and let the music heal those wounds.

[Shpira]

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Mate really don't know whats up or what your current situation is but keep your self strong...find a way to vent off all the bad shit and re-evaluate your position. The best advice I ever received was from my brother when he said that no matter how bleak our outlook in life , no matter how much life and our current shit gets us down...if we put our selves to work and focus we can make our life at least a little better. I remember that in my worst moments and it always helps.
Just hold on.

[tiddles]

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keep your head up, buddy. i've been in a serious funk since about june 08 and am only now getting out of it. things get better

[nick007]

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Hey feather sorry to hear of your situation. Chin up mate it gets better

[pipey]

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Hey bro = all of MS know what ive gone through this year, and i can only imagine how you are feeling... it takes time for you to feel better mate, but you will feel better.... even if its only a lil bit at first.

at the end of the day my feathered friend, im here if you need me (ill pm you my email address) - and im coming over in nov so we'll have to get hammered at sasha!!!

chin up my son. sometimes life is a poo sandwich and all you can do is get used to the taste

[Dhar_2]

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i missed something!

keep your chin feather!

[feather]

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Thanks everyone, and again, I am sorry. Unfortunately there is no delete function for the thread.

I went into a lot of details in the original post which is probably not necessary nor good for the place.

Suffice to say, I had been up the whole night trying to keep my ex from destroying the apartment after knifing, burning my bed and other shit and struggling with a fucking knife. I resorted to extreme measures to prove how I feel about her, which was clearly a stupid thing to do but given the moment, when my words mean nothing, I had no idea what else to do except to resort to action.

The worst is over for now, this won't reflect well on me for not turning up at work, and because of work and this, it just feels like everything is converging and imploding together.